I really want people to at least take a quick peek at Kwon Jiyong’s true self and how he really feels. Glad he did this interview that could speak up a lil bit of his mind.

The Story of His Life.

G-DRAGON’S Nylon Interview

UNDER COVER; G-DRAGON

I asked G-Dragon if he wasn’t hungry and tired because of the shoots since morning without eating. G-Dragon gave us a manly answer “I have a lot of energy and I think of photo shoots as playing- I enjoy it very such so it’s not as tiring for me as the people around me are concerned about.”, and moved places saying he had to go do some recording for his album.

THE SUMMER BIRTHDAY BOY

He says don’t make a big fuss about it like kids do, but you can’t deny that you’re hyper and also empty at the same time. 22nd birthday. Your solo album you’ve dreamed of since you were young is coming out. In that there is a boy and a male celebrity. on a very hot day, we met him who had the same birthday.

skipped some parts ;

I heard that you also don’t really care about wearing women size clothing if the clothes are nice. I felt this at our shooting scene today too, but you don’t look like you intentionally make yourself look cool and handsome.

It’s because I’m not handsome. TOP hyung is handsome. Our Bigbang members are more friendly looking than being really handsome. To Daesung I tell him right in front of him “I’m not the best looking, but you aren’t handsome.” Daesung knows that he’s not the best looking. We don’t care about our faces. In fashion shoots there’s always a concept; I follow the concept that the staffs give me, I don’t try to make my face come out nicely or anything- that makes the picture and the outfit die away. Before I wanted to look good in the pictures, but since I’m not the best looking it doesn’t come out like that. Like exaggerating everything to look nice doesn’t really suit me.

Maybe because you’re one of the most influential style icons?

It’s embarrassing to say ’style icon…’. (laugh) I just like clothes; those words are quite overwhelming for me.

I thought you somewhat enjoyed it but I must’ve been wrong.

Because of that I constantly think “Do I have to wear this first?”

When Bigbang first came out I was really surprised when I saw everyone wearing the same stuff. How did you feel when even little kids started to wear what you did?

It was surprising. But I’m still embarrassed when I hear the word ‘Bigbang style’. For example when they call the sunglasses TOP hyung wore TOP sunglasses, the hair I did as G-Dragon hair. I’m still embarrassed when people say that. When I’m on the internet there are a lot of people like me. Haha. To be honest it is not easy to wear the clothes I wear on stage for everyday life. It was quite surprising when I saw people wearing that. It’s good that I’ve been a tad of a help to them but it’s still awkward. Words like style icon.

You were criticized a lot when you wore the t-shirt that had the word ’sex’ on it. Did you think that they were over-reacting?

I’d been wanting to wear that shirt for ages. I tried to find it for two or three years but it was impossible to find. But on the day of that awards ceremony Jieun nuna(stylist) bought it from this second-hand shop. I was so happy I wore it right when I got it. When we wear something we usually don’t read all the writing that it has. Honestly I didn’t see what it said on the shirt but if you look at it as a picture you get to read it. It was my fault that I didn’t think of that and I have to apologize because it made the people watching feel uncomfortable. But to be really honest I didn’t really understand them.

If you had a change to perform with Lady Gaga who wears even more shocking clothes than you, what would you wear?

I think I would dress neat and modern. If we both dressed like that then we would probably look like aliens.

On the day this magazine comes out your solo album is also coming out. You said that you wanted to do all the music you wanted to do- then what is it?

On TV I look quite ’strong’, right? ‘Craziness’? I guess that was my most confident side on TV. But since I’m alone this time I wanted to show everyone a different side of myself. There’s this song that I sung calmly while playing the guitar. This album is the album I’ve prepared for since I was 13. There are some diary entries from when I was a kid. If you listen to the album you would be able to know how I’ve lived and what I’m thinking about without talking to me separately.

Did you do everything by yourself? You’re the producer of this album, right?

Yang Hyunsuk CEO just put me in charge of everything. I did the album design, pictures, concept, outfit, choreography and even the music(not all by himself though). But I didn’t compose all the songs by myself; I mostly worked on the songs with someone else.

Are you satisfied?

I’m not sure since it’s not all over yet but I’ve worked hard. When we were doing our Japan activities if I had time even for just a day I came back to Korea taking a morning flight and worked on it the whole day then came back by night. I had to not only do the recordings, but also had to do the music video meetings, album outfit meeting etc. I did so many meetings that my nickname right now is Kwon bujang. (*bujang- manager)

There were articles of how you had depression while preparing for your first solo album since it was so hard. You know that right?

I’m not the type of person that explains everything so I just passed by it but I’m not the type of person that would go into depression. I was quiet for a while because I was a little overwhelmed to prepare everything. Maybe that made me looked like I was depressed…

For some you’re a person that has a lot. A lot of talent and you’ve met a lot of good people. You were born in the right era so you could show off your talent. Because of that there were many negative rumors about you such as the depression, composing etc. These rumors because of your popularity, aren’t you mad?

It’s not like that they’ll believe me even if I explain everything; I hope that sometime later they’ll acknowledge me as a ‘person that works hard’. I think it’ll be solved then so I try to not care about it. It’s quite disappointing though. Even though I may look like a flippant person on TV but I work hard. When everyone else is sleeping I write songs. I barely even sleep. I mean why, what do they hate about me so much. Since I’m still young and I still do get hurt.

What efforts have you made?

When I’m into something I keep on going. When I don’t want to do something I don’t. For ten years and even now, I’m still into music and clothes. It was since I was in middle schools. I used to buy and make stuff since I didn’t have anything else to do. People look at me as Bigbang, but on times when I’m not on TV I have quite a lot of time. I sometimes go out to meet my friends too. At home there’s seriously nothing to do. When I work on a number of songs it’s just a few that actually go in the albums. Well I don’t really have to explain this process. In my opinion I think I have to let the listeners listen to only the good stuff.

How did you start out this process that’s totally different from the other idol singers? What made you start thinking about ‘making’ music.

I liked to dance, but on TV the people who were dancing were singers. I didn’t really think singing was cool, but rap where they talked fast looked amazing. In grade 4 my best friend’s dad was the music head for MBC. At his house there were a lot of CDs, LPs and tapes. Since I went over to his house a lot I naturally got to listen to a lot of pop music. I was shocked when I first heard Wu-Tang Clan’s song; it was a totally different dimension than the songs I’ve heard. Since then I wrote my own lyrics to MRs and performed them at the school camps. Then the rumors went over to YG which led to making them cast me. I came all the way here by doing what I loved.

But don’t you think you have talent?

I do think so because if I didn’t have the talent I don’t think I would be able to do this stuff. I put in a lot of effort in too, but I think I had a little more talent than everyone else.

Do you have someone that you admire who has talent that you think you can’t catch up to?

No one. I’m not saying I’m amazing or anything, but I think that in the end they’re all just people and I think that I can become friends with them. I have this DJ that I became friends with during our Japan activities. His friend is friends with Kanye West and Pharrell Williams. If I hang out with them I could get to be friends with them too. I think you can become friends with anyone as you like clothes and music. I don’t have a person that I want to be like but there are a whole bunch of people that I think are cool. I think people who enjoy and work hard are the best.

Is KAWS one of the people you think are cool? You said that you would want to work with him.

Making it Louis Vuitton, or even indie bands he scribbles everything out in his own way. I think that mind setting of his is very cool. I wanted to work with him because I think he would work with me with no prejudice.

What is the standard for people that could become friends with you either than liking fashion and music?

They would have to be my friend’s friends.

So being introduced to someone by someone you know.

I don’t really like meeting new people; I go to places I’ve already been to. I hope they would be an open-minded person. I don’t like people that ‘pretend’ and be different in the inside. I hope they would be able to say everything in my face- nice or mean. My friends are like that. For them I’m nothing. My friend came over for a little bit during the shoot.

Those people that were in training suits? Friends?

Yes. Haha. My friends. When my friends see me they swear first of all. My friends see me as Kwon Jiyong not G-Dragon. When people regard me as a celebrity I tend to not be able to become more intimate with them.

You have tattoos on your arms and your back. What do they mean?

On my right arm it says ‘Dolce Vita’ and on my left it says ‘Moderato’. Sweetly enjoying life and living at ease. On my back it says ‘too fast to live, to young to die’. Sid Vicious said this and it means ‘too corrupted to live but too young to die’. It seemed like my story. I usually get a tattoo before I achieve a big goal. I need to do one for this album but I don’t know where I should.

Have you thought of a phrase yet?

‘Head and thinking cold, heart hot’. This phrase was my motive since I was young.

The most regrettable stage outfits?

Outfits I made them wear during ‘Last Farewell’. They were even confusing for me.

just for fun ;

Member that makes the clothes dirty the most.

“TOP”

lol I agree.

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Kwon JiYong is not a standing statue, netizens! He’s not NUMB.

He is a youthful artist who has eyes, ears, and emotions.

HE STILL GETS HURT.

He’s not a genius but a hard worker who takes risks and changes any hardships into stepping stones. He transforms his eagerness and emotions into music. He barely sleeps to bring us good ones ; hits that we listen to day and night. That’s why I got extremely pissed when he was accused by some fucking plagiarism issues because of  30 seconds song previews. Those people who never understand nor appreciate one’s hard-work. In the end, he proved them haters wrong while they could just suck and shut it.

He’s realistic yet creatively imaginative.

He’s honest. He always means what he says. He’s  not hesitant. He says and does things as he pleasures .

He’s playful and witty but he always gives his all when it comes to work.

He’s very caring, he always comes and gives support to the other YG Family members. To him ; it’s always giving than receiving.

He might look strong and sound cocky but he’s really fragile inside. He doesn’t want to tell bullshits to people cause that’s what many people have been telling him. He feels insecure in meeting new people cause he joined the entertainment scene since he was very little. He got famous after he joined YG even before he debuted as the leader of BIGBANG, so many people had seen him as a celebrity; a young talent; and not as Kwon JiYong, a regular korean teenage boy. Thus, he felt as if people were only interested in him cause he wasn’t just any guy. He’s a celebrity. And he never really experienced the normal childhood that other kids had. He’s kind of fragile. Now there are times when I’m afraid that he might break apart.

He speaks about how the album actually tells the stories of his life.

There are many lyrics that I found captivating and heart-breaking.

from the song BOY ; Sonyeo iya this is the story of his life

It’s deep in the night but I can’t sleep

Fighting against the worsened headaches

Twisted and turned until I was deep in my thoughts then grabbed the pen again

The lyrics that I’m writing with no space in between have my philosophy

My room that’s filled with white smoke is cozy like home sweet home

I’ve came here with no rest since I was 13

My mightiest weapon was my confidence

When there’s an uphill there’s always a downhill

Too late to go back I can’t let go

Remember back in that day

Your shining dream, I cannot forget that dream

Don’t forget back in that day boy

Shout to the world with your cool voice, shine alive

G-dragon whatever people say about how you’re too young

I’m G-dragon whatever the others say whao~

People say they’re jealous of me because I have too much

Celebrities all live a comfortable life

Be in their shoes for just a day

You’ll realize what you see isn’t everything

As time passed by my loneliness grew

The sense of duty was the heaviest burden for me

When there’s an uphill there’s always a downhill

Too late to run away I wanna go

Remember back in that day

Your shining dream, I cannot forget that dream

Don’t forget back in that day boy

Shout to the world with your cool voice, shine alive

The tears and sweat from the past 10 years

The cold tears you’ve held back ah ah ah ah lets start again

Remember back in that day

Your shining dream, I cannot forget that dream

Don’t forget back in that day boy

Shout to the world with your cool voice, shine alive

(Just once) Remember back in that day (Go back) Shining dream (Huh)

I can never forget (forget) That dream then (huh)

Don’t forget back in that day (way back) boy

Shout to the world with your wonderful voice shine alive

Come back to me now (even after 10 years)

Come back to me now (even after 10 years)

Come back to me now (The past days, my youth)

I can never forget (that’s choice)

Don’t forget back in that day (dropped to you by GD)

Shout to the world with your wonderful voice shine alive

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I believe we don’t need more explanation.

Gossip Man

Emergency emergency emergency emergency

hey man~ what is todays gossip
I cant be quiet for even a day~
Why~ Why me~
everybody attention please
i am gossip man

ladies and gentlemen ho!
they call me gossip man, you know
You know, everyone knows
Actually, its not

Today at a cafe, to a girl
She said she got hit in the face with water
Yesterday at a street, to some guy
Said she kicked him with her feet

Who, me?
no, lie
My rumor is asexual
The many eyes are too scary

Now, this much is funny
In the past, I cried a lot
All the more, the joy (mouths) swelled even more
The thoughts longer, the words lessened
The world cried at my life

because youre cool
yes im cool cool
I also enjoy it
Yeah, could be fun

yeah~ In this boring world, if one of me makes it more joyful
say Superman, Batman, like XO gossip man

hey man~ whats todays gossip now
I cant be quiet for even a day why~
why me.
At school, at the office, at work, even at home
VCD radio MP3 hot news magazine too
Im waiting for something
In a boring life
Now, the story prepared for today is coming.

Today, the reporters pen will catch fire
Do you see the search engine ranking
Many netizens fingers are getting tired.
The situation is more serious.
Our world is a hot pot.
If you blink your eye, it should cool down.
you hand, do your thang
Conduct zero, do my thang

because youre cool
yes im cool cool
I also enjoy it
Yeah, could be fun

yeah~ In this world where its hard to live, if one of me comforts you
say Superman, Batman, like XO gossip man

hey man~ what is todays gossip
I cant be quiet for even a day~
Why~ Why me~
everybody attention please
i am gossip man

Why do you have so many words
What exactly are you so curious about
Your own world
Unnecessary controversy
Dont be concerned and get up. go on, let him go.

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This one is for those haters, brainless netizens and heartless reporters.

Well, that’s enough talking about his life and pain cause I’m not sure if I would stop if I continue. Either way, I’m in pain talking about his pain.. So let’s just move on to the next case.

HIS MUSIC. HIS ART. HIS LANGUAGE.

“Kwon JiYong speaks through the rhythim and shouts through the lyrics.”

Now I also wanna share the concept behind Heartbreaker MV and lyrics Some of the parts with the apple and stuff might have gotten us confusing now I stumbled upon an interesting speculation of the meaning. And since JiYong worked on anything and everything including the concept and the album jacket. The apples must have an essential meaning since he uses them a lot

Here’s the translation lyrics

A yo! Finally! Is this what you’ve been waiting for?
Brand new G.D! I’m all by myself but it’s all good!
You’re my heartbreaker~
DJ and YG
Let me take this song here

I am lacking of *Lysine somewhere
But the good parts haven’t die off yet
My broken body just because of you
A missing dream my heart cannot find
Just for you this one body can fly
To a place where you are at
But my love, you keep leaving me again and again

Just what is your reason for hating me
Your confident expression makes everything you tell me sad
However, that chance will be comforting
I loathe that one cold look in the presence of your eyes

No, no
You’re my heart, heart, heart, heart, heart breaker
Just what did I do that has gone wrong
You’re heart, heart, heart, heart, heart breaker
No way, No way

When I ran after you, I really did go
See it well and clear

Damn, damn, damn it; creak, creak, creaking away
The tragic story of my love, no way

Every day, the both of us have changed in either ways
Withdraw those wretched lips
Tell me who is my rival
I am now out of control, getting all crazy alone
Goodbye and goodbye again to that special place

Just what is your reason for hating me
The anger in your voice makes everything you show me sad
However, that chance will be comforting
I am hating that one cold smile formed on your face

No, no
You’re my heart, heart, heart, heart, heart breaker
Just what did I do that has gone wrong
You’re my heart, heart, heart, heart, heart breaker
No way, no way

When I ran after you, I really did go
See it well and clear

Damn, damn, damn it; creak, creak, creaking away
The tragic story of my love

I’ll still, still be there (Your turned off cellphone)
I’ll still, still be there (The mailbox in front my house)
You are still my love (Though I’m not needed now)

I’ll will still be there

Forever, all those words we had together
For a minute, just the sweetness of it
Darling, why are you so indifferent
Hey! I’m in so much pain

no no
You’re my heart, heart, heart, heart, heart breaker
Just what did I do that has gone wrong
You’re my heart, heart, heart, heart, heart breaker
no way no way

You’re my heart, heart, heart breaker breaker
You’re my heart, heart, heart breaker breaker
h.e.a.r.t. breaker no way..

So, firstly. In the lyric, there’s this line “나도 어디서 꿀리진 않어” or “I am lacking of lysine somewhere.”

Lysine is one of the essential amino acids – your body cannot generate its own Lysine, meaning you must get it from your diet.

Recent studies have shown that Lysine may be effective against herpes by improving the balance of nutrients that reduce viral growth. Prolonged stressful situations increase our requirements for Lysine and it is important in the formation of collagen (the protein that forms the matrix of your bone, cartilage and connective tissue).

Going back to the apple issue. As you can see on GD TV, they shot his album jacket photoshoot. Shortly, he explained that he always sees apples as hearts since the shapes are similar and “apples contain lysine, which he lacks of.
It also represents his girlfriend’s love, which he lacks of.

Someone pointed out that the white background with blue and red pillars could be representing the veins and artery of his heart. Him dancing desperately and painfully to the chorus in that set shows his shaken and painful heart breaking apart soon.

That’s where the Damn it, Creaking lyrics come, representing the heart falling apart.

Then, when he was in a black jacket under white sheets, the lyrics were that both parties changed in one way or another.Since he was the “black spot” among the white sheets, it could mean that he changed negatively. And he has indeed gone wonky.

The dark set could represent that the inside of his heart is darkened or dying. I say it’s the inside of his heart because the ‘outside’ is still red and blueish, which was used in the earlier set of his heart that’s about to break. There were also cracks in the background, so it probably meant his heart has broken already. Then the chorus comes in, which shows his heart breaking even further.

When he came into a room full of apples, which were full of lysine/love (the hearts on the apples), he was so near yet so far. He couldn’t get the apples, which meant that he couldn’t get his love back. Because that’s where the lyrics come in:

Forever, all those words we had together
For a minute, just the sweetness of it
Darling, why are you so indifferent

The apples probably represented the sweet love they used to have, but he couldn’t get it back, hence, “Hey! I’m in so much pain”

His love appeared on the wall, which turned into bricks, so he tried hard to break the wall apart to show his desperate love for her. The lyrics mentioned before that he wanted to see his rival, so when the wall broke, his rival happened to be himself. That’s where the next part of his MV comes in because the video ended with a small part of Breathe, if I’m not wrong.”

“…” credits to ; gawdilovegod@livejournal

It’s just amazing how he puts every littlest details to whatever he does. This is what I call art as a package. Well, it’s not so wrong to call him a genius after all, I guess. But since he’d prefer to be called a hard-worker, I’m more than likely to see him as that. Anyways, the MV is a trilogy and it’s been determined that the last part will use the song “BOY”. excited for a triple dose of HOTNESS. Gosh. There’s just so much to talk and to love about him. I should stop now or this will go on to 20 pages!

love him or hate him ; that’s the question.

if you love him, THANKYOU.

if you hate him then F*CK YOU.

ADIOS !